Today

10.10.10 today.

Nagising ako around 8 in the morning just to find out na tapos na maligo lahat ng kapatid ko and my dad as well. So I rushed to the bathroom to take a short shower. Ako na naman ang dahilan kung bakit kami malelate sa church. I finished it after 20 minutes. Ako na lang ang hinihintay and I even heard my youngest sister complaining and asking to my dad, “Sasama pa ba si Kuya? Pawis na pawis na ‘ko.”

I shouted, “30 minutes na lang ulet!” And then I laughed and laughed and fixed myself.

Much to our surprise, we weren’t late. Thank God.

Then the service started 15 minutes after we arrived. It was all good, just like those other services. 2 hours after, we decided to head our way home.

Iisa ang sinabi naming kay Dad kung bakit na naming gustong umuwi. Magrereview pa kami. And he smiled.

When we got home, it was already 11.30AM. Nakakaantok ang ganung oras. Seryoso. So instead of reviewing, I let myself sleep. Haha.

Bago ako natulog, hiniram ko muna ipod ng kapatid ko. Sobrang luma na ng mga kanta ko and add the fact na nakakasawa na silang pakinggan. I browsed her play lists. Sino ang hindi mamamangha sa 3,560 songs?! Ngayon lang ako nakahawak ng ipod na ganito karami ang songs. Haha

I found an album of Michael Buble. Ang mellow nung songs but one song caught my attention. It was titled, Hold On.

Good thing ako lang yung nasa room and it the door was locked. Naiyak ako. I really don’t know why. Sobrang na-move ako dun sa message ng song. Too bad, hindi yun alam ng ex-love ko which I consider my true love. And then, I slept.

When I woke up, I realized that it wasn’t a dream. There were tear stains left on my pillow, forcing me to believe that I cried before sleeping. And when I came back to my senses, I felt that I wanted to be loved again. I was longing for someone who could help me in fixing my heart so it can go back to its normal form.

I admit that I’m still holding on to the fact that one day everything will be the same. I can still see my future with this particular person. Though I should make myself believe that I am longer part of her world, my world and my heart still belongs to her.

Ganito pala yung aftermath ng isang broken relationship. Though you wanted to let go and move on, part of you is hopeful that you can still work it out.

At this point, I still ask myself why we need to end a relationship that we thought it can last for a lifetime? It doesn’t make sense when someone needs to abandon the other one while they still love each other.

Ngayon pa lang talaga ako magsstart magreview and it’s already 10:30PM. The relationship we made wasn’t as perfect as we wanted it to be. Sana kahit acads man lang, maperfect ko.